I would lie awake at night aching for rest and relief from my racing mind.
Yo, this one here, goes out to all my players out there man, you know They got to have one good girl who's always been there like Took all the bullshit Then one day she can't take it no more and decides to leave. I woke up in the middle of the night And I noticed my girl wasn't by my side Could've sworn I was dreaming For her I was feening So I had a take a little ride Back tracking on these few years Trying to figure out what I do to make it go bad 'Cause every since my girl left me My whole life came crashin' and I'm so. Lonely so lonely I'm Mr. Lonely Mr. Lonely I have nobody I have nobody For my own to call my own, girl. I'm so lonely so lonely I'm Mr.
How do we feel about loneliness? Loneliness is something I reflect on a lot.
I wanted to explore an inner stillness, the simplicity of just being. From a Buddhist perspective, we would say our true nature is within us, not outside us.
Years ago, when I first moved here, I suffered from depression; I was diagnosed with HIV in and I dealt with it by packing my bags and moving from South Africa to London, quite suddenly. In a big city like London, loneliness can become quite a disease.
I was getting involved in things, and when I was released from jail my house had no roof. I was squatting, living in a tent. Nowadays, when I spend the day on my own, everything is peace. There are so many exhausted people, everyone is carrying their own parcel of pressure and everyone is so busy.
When I first moved here, I came with my boyfriend, but we broke up and that was very tricky; I only knew two people here and they were always working. Social media can be helpful, but not all social media.
WhatsApp and Skype are great: Facebook is terrible — it makes you lonelier. After the recession, I had a lot less money, and generally speaking it takes a lot of money to enjoy yourself in London, but because of those changes in my life I came to realise things about my own ambition and drive.
So I have started to live my life differently, more authentically. You have to work at it. The energy that you would spend on others, you spend on yourself, but the longer you live alone, the harder it is to live with other people. The other disadvantage is loneliness and loneliness is undeniable.
I have good friends and I feel lonely. I watched a David Attenborough documentary the other day and there was a polar bear on the ice, searching for a mate.
The aerial camera zoomed out and there were miles of ice in every direction. Becoming a mother and going on maternity leave is a dramatic transition — your appearance changes, people view you differently and you almost stop seeing yourself as an independent person.
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Most people only ever ask you about your baby. What am I doing? A generation ago, east London had very established communities, which helped when you were raising a family. Marion: Lynne and I have known each other for a couple of years now and it makes a big difference to have people around you.
All by myself
I used to visit a lady in Maida Vale. Of course being a lonely person is difficult, but it can also be a huge strain on the relatives who feel solely responsible for that person. The way I see it, there are different kinds of loneliness.
I can go outdoors, listen to music, talk to strangers. I speak Arabic, Turkish and French, just from talking to people. When I was young, I did struggle with loneliness more, when my elders left me — the adults around me and my older brothers — and I was alone.
But I learned to find myself. Is that love? Are they your friends? Or do they just exist on the phone?
It should be the same with friendship. At my time of life, it gets harder to socialise and feel part of things. The other hard thing about growing older is losing people. When my best friend died it was an awful time.
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